Good Grief. Is that an oxymoron?

I have a CD with that name. What exactly does that mean?

Maybe it is what you get after you see a psychiatrist.

It was suggested to me that is what I should do for my grief. Really?

There is no good, easy, orderly, sane way to experience grief. It is a gut-wrenching horror that changes you forever. This knowledge comes from experience---so what could a psychiatrist add to that (drugs maybe)?

I know that God will use this in my life for good, but I don't yet see that. I also know that I can cover my brokenness by going on "auto-pilot" to survive, but I am missing pieces of myself that were created by loving David and Michael. When you dearly love someone they inhabit the fabric of who you are. I am not the "me" I was. It's hard not being Mike's Mom.

I am mostly in a fog, and it is tempting to get lost in that fog, but then two names come into my head---Jeanette and Austin.

Here's a good quote: "After you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you". I Peter 5:10